Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Mary's LiveJournal:

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Sunday, November 19th, 2006
4:46 pm	hahahaha best quote OF LIFE Drunken matt rucci: Yeah, not gonna lie, i have no idea where the clit is... Me: BURSTS OUT LAUGHING "NO KIDDING!" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 23rd, 2006
7:29 pm	im getting tired of working so hard, and never getting anywhere. someone is always let down with me. and i'm constnatly tired. i never do the thigns i want to be doing. i spend so many hours a day doing homework, yet its not enough. and apprently its not the right thing to be doing, to study so much, because then i don't have time for friends. the only time is weekend, and that is split between so many people, no one is satisfied. including myself. at least at home, there was no split, i was just there, working hard and being happy. per usual lj posts, that doesn't seem to be happening. i love it here, i do have fun. i wish homework got done on its own, that hearts didnt break, that alcohol isn't hte only reason people have fun, and that i was just smarter.moretalented.skinnier.prettier.happier.better. Current Mood: pms. can't you tell? (Comment on this)
Monday, October 9th, 2006
4:27 pm	i still got it :) anytime i dont think i do, that dj was fuckin HOT. i did good. Current Mood: pleased (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 20th, 2006
11:35 pm	i'm pretty sure shes bipolar. that woman is effing crazy. i wish this summer wasn't comming to an end. i'm excited to go back. its comforting to go back to the same place, and know how its gonna be, and know i'm in the right place. it feels like another home when i'm there. which for me, well, i thought that wuold be an impossibility. but its such a good thing that its finally worked out, and thats why i am excited to go back. however, i think i might be slipping into uconn mode, even just a little. i'm scared that now that i'm eevn more attached, its gonna be hard. our one year is comming up. thats a freakin long time. and honestly, i love seeing him every day. i love taking him for granted, and then forgetting that, and being absolutely in love all over again every day. he's in my life now. he is my life at home. i've never felt this way before. its as real as anything i've ever felt before, even more real in some senses, because its simply what it is. we don't try to make it more or less than face value. and that, it turns out, is a lot. i would love to simply have him here at night. to go home to him, every night. that would be perfect. Current Mood: tired, loved and restless (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
11:12 pm	i don't want to go back. its too good here with him. i finally let him in, and i won't fight it anymore. hes the one i pick. and for nwo, it seems like its ognna be for a long time. and i don't want to give it up. i don't want to miss him at school. and i don't want to fuck it up while i'm there either. pooooooooooooooop. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
10:25 am	so remember that one time i got a tick bite? yeahhhh... lets hope that i'm just tired, and don't have lyme disease. lol i love what i update with. Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Monday, July 31st, 2006
11:07 pm	so when i am pmsing i hate life, we all know that. so of course i hate all boys. ha and then there is hottie rob, and he is a silly silly kid. Rhodus333: then im suprised you havent had more boyfriends Goddess6868: ha thanks? Goddess6868: i go camping and listen to zepplin... i AM one of the boys, not exactly pretty in most guys eyes i've learned Rhodus333: i dont believe it for a second Goddess6868: ha well aren't you the smooth talker Rhodus333: yu dont often meet a girl who can be hot and cool simultaneously Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
11:35 pm	i want to settle. have a routine. have him there. and get a little crazy. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
11:24 pm	sorry i was a bitch tonght guys. sidenote, i am not very good at being a girlfriend. i definitely need some work. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 23rd, 2006
11:57 pm	him: so how are you? like, hows, everything? me: ... really.... yeah, really good. how about you? hows everything? him: eh, ya know. Current Mood: really good :) (Comment on this)
Monday, June 19th, 2006
10:24 pm	this boy is amazing. he confuses me so much. and its so good. we layed under his jeep for a half hour. pretty fantastic. figuring out how love is supposed to work is scary shit. but having someone let you be scared is what makes you love them more. Current Mood: love and confusion (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 18th, 2006
11:49 pm	i wish i didn't do this. i wish i didn't get this feeling. i wish i wasn't so scared. and i wish i could tell him all this. Current Mood: not so good (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
6:52 pm	so today was pretty much the best day ever. is it normal that i am at my happiest when i am with those girls? i don't need boys, i don't need anything. it was so perfect when we were driving back, flying down the road, singing jon bon. i do love summer :) Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Friday, June 9th, 2006
4:37 pm	i can't keep holding things in. Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
11:03 pm	i do love girls nights. you ladies will always be my favorites. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 5th, 2006
4:02 pm	i loved today. i spent the afternoon wtih jessie and karen. and i laughed harder than i have in a while. it seems like the stress all went away for the first few weeks of summer, but its comming back. i think its cause its hte off week from the pill mostly that i'm freakin out. theres nothing to control my hormones anymore. i wish i could talk to my mom about that, i tried, and it failed. last time i was at hte doctors, they wanted to help me even more, but theres no way that would happen. i'm scared shitless that i won't get my period tomorrow. but i'm sure i will. i don't know. i just wish i was back with the girls laughing, and not thinking about boys, work, grandma, mom, my boy, school, life. lol i'm pretty sure i love pms. lets me know i'm still functioning okay. ha i love how it takes me to get ridiculously stressed out, to know i'm okay. oh my life. heh quote that will describe this summer, you will hear me say it many times over. ohhh, my life. ps. i am super excited for sunday. why? MASSAGE! Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
5:42 pm	you should read his profile sometime. it makes me smile :) Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
1:02 am	nothing matters but that feeling that i get. the world disappears, and he is everything. not in a creepy obsessive or lost without him way. just, only because he makes me smile. you don't look a day over fast cars and freedom (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
1:20 am	being in love is pretty much the best thing ever so freakin happy. unbelievable. Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
12:56 am	i'm having a hard time saying i love you. where is all this doubt comming from? why is it getting to me? i'm sick of nights with boys that are not him. i can't enjoy them. i hate missing him. i just want to have fun. and not worry. or think like this. Current Mood: confused (Comment on this)